This hymn played at the funeral for two of my daughters. On this date, two years ago, my loves left this earth. A nightmare. A tragedy. My heart shattered into more pieces than I ever thought possible–not only losing my girls but watching the grief of those I love and being unable to comfort them. We sang the song “It is Well” and it truly was for me. Amid the darkness, I knew my Jesus held me and I trusted the One who created everything in existence, including my beautiful girls.
Two years later, it is still well with my soul, but in an entirely different way. I miss them. . . oh, how I miss them. God has done such a work in my heart and in my life. People have said things like “So sad their lives were cut short. . .” “Oh, they are missing so much.” That’s not how I see it. When I look at my Bible, I don’t see any place that says they were taken “too soon.” It was absolutely too soon for me. However, all of our days are numbered. The Lord God knew exactly how many days Wendy and Nonnie would have. They lived their ENTIRE lives. I would have been so happy to have them here for the rest of my life on earth. I’d have loved to see Nonnie watch her boy grow up. How fun it would have been to see she and her husband grow their cattle herd and their family. How exciting to have watched Wendy find and marry the man God had for her and see where her life went.
Here’s the thing. I have a tiny little life on this broken earth. I can only see the finite and the temporal, but the Lord has given me a broader perspective. Because my girls had given their lives to Jesus–because they trusted in Him and lived for Him–when their lives were completed, He called them Home to live with Him for eternity. My girls–MY GIRLS–are seated today at a table with Jesus!!! Think of that! The glory and majesty and splendor of Heaven is theirs!! And when my life here is done, I’ll join them for eternity.
Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. Psalm 139:16 NIV
Scattered Seeds 